Poem: Breathe Me

***Dedicated to the Vulnerable parts within and to my Muse so ever grateful, keeps me diving deeper into my own intimacy....

Inhale

Breathe me

Take me in

Exhale the thrill

Feel the sensation

Hold me in fascination

In profound penetration

Wrap me in your embrace

As we interlace 

Getting lost in the lust

I am falling

Exhilarated by the thrust

Drowning in the emotions

Feeling alive

Truth revealed

I blindly trust

Breathe me

My vulnerable parts

The shaped eye hearts

Inhale

Hopeless fate

Deeply involved

Open to you

Profound, no walls

I take you in fully

Soul naked, uncensored

Safe

Exhale, I surrender

Breathe me

Explore

Unleash your soul

You’re wild inside 

I want to feel you whole

You can’t deny

We intertwine

Be my guide

Let’s enjoy the ride

Walk with me

Hold my hand

Let us be

Time is only sand

Breathe me in

Celeste <3

Poem: Ignited!!!

****Dedicated to a man that blew my heart away with a simple Hello! Deeply Grateful for being the muse of my inspiration...

Just to be

To desire, to risk the dice, to begin

To leave the past behind

Just to be, your lips might be the refuge

It can be that place 

The mountains, the ocean, the peaceful place 

And my thoughts drift with intrigue like butterflies 

Butterflies in my stomach 

To purify the senses 

Elevating me 

From beginning to end 

Savoring each day palpitation 

I cherish the wait 

The hours fly; It’s rare I accept 

Every instant digs more

Intense, my eyes, wait for excitement 

Intense days, don’t know about you 

But me…my soul surrenders 

Waits for more challenge 

Don’t want to waste another minute without cultivating 

These intense days, fire inward as much as outward 

I was waiting for you, then you arrived 

Felt your skin on mine 

The wait has been become a habit 

Taking your gestures inward 

What makes you be such a radiance to me 

The days pass, and I am in the wait 

But the reality is different, I see light, doubts that I will not know 

The simple, the completion 

A thousand opportunities to experience you 

Your serenity equalizes 

You are the energy that recharges me 

You are the dreams of freedom 

My accomplice in this compliment of affinity 

I look into your eyes and know your thoughts 

The vibration takes me hostage 

The days fly; I want to know what moves you 

The daily opportunities to feel you 

You come around 

Like a lightning bolt 

It might be having you close to ignite and burn 

You called me a temptress 

It might be that your kisses make me delirious 

The observation 

The conscious of the irrational 

I look to invest, in rhymes to seduce 

My passion, my voice, my feeling is error proof 

My excess, I look to induce 

Awake, Ignited By YOU!!

Celeste <3

Poem: Just a thought?

Every second, minute, hour 

There is no clock that goes backwards

Time is not of worry; Time is opportunity

What the Source gives with true beauty

When was the last time you saw the stars

Without thinking about the scars? 

When was the last time you were loved?

Like the light from above? 

When was the last time you lost?

Because you let fear be the cost? 

My favorite poet always said:

“What I planted, gave fruit

Regardless of my errors: fear, doubt, loss are inevitable

I learned through the long nights of despair

That you never promised me nights of bliss 

I loved, was loved, Life I owe you nothing

Life we are at peace”

Life I owe you nothing, life I am at peace

My wish; my desire

To hold the space that your heart aspires

To be the support when life transpires

To shower you with the energy that you require

To be the one that you look for to inspire

The fragile, the wounds, are all healed with fire

Very few see the power; that you radiate

Inhale, Create

Let your thoughts migrate

Live Today; and Play! 

When will you be; what you have not been before?

Celeste <3

To my beloved....

****Dedicated to the man that chose to dive deep with me through love, through contract, through lifetimes, you changed my life eternally, Love you JJ

"Abandon yourself utterly and without any technique you
will come to see a timeless experience. There will be no two in it: oneness. A consciousness will be there, a lucid passive consciousness will be there, you will know what is happening because you will be fully aware. But you will not be there; awareness will be there"~ Osho

~I am writing this to you my beloved, my true love, my mirror, my alchemy, my best friend...You called me your halo...We have part ways to come into awareness of the dysfunction that we continued to nurture within us!! How we abandon ourselves time and time again, looking outside of what we know to be true...How the reflection of light affects you? How it blinds me? How we miss each other’s energetic polarities? How we we go to back and forth on the pendulum, attempting to find our zero point? Missing our silly debates about science vs. spirituality, western and alternative medicine, missing the little things, that encouraged us to aspire to inspire! Our talks about how our lives would be, how we would be of service, how we would change the world! Our unconscious behavior of my dramatics and your cool collected ways. My emotional heart and your rationale mind. How we have been in our lives for decades, as children, as teenagers, unaware, until we decided to reconnect. I think about you every day, I still say good morning and good night, hoping you will hear me...because you once told me that there is no substitute for true love that we would be in our lives forever! Yet, in the present moment, being apart seems to be the most healing medicine for both. "He knew they were soulmates, he referred to her as such; the connection was undeniable. Anyone who had ever spent time with the two of them together could feel the truth of this, regardless of circumstances and storylines" Jahnke, (2014). I am aware that you feel the same way I do, but you have many things to clean-up, so many things to own! And you made your choice! You were not courageous, you went into fear! I am unable to wait for you! My deepest desire is for you to catch up to me...like you promised! I feel such a void and at the same time a sense of fullness within my heart! "They were soul mates…but he could never show up for any of that. He tried in his ways, but he simply could not or would not step in to the work that a soul mate connection offers to two Beings" Jahnke, (2014). Because we both know that we love each other deeply and we always will, its life, its timing that has us venturing to other paths, its evolution. This ever ending contract of surrender, learning how to love in its pure form is the gift we given each other. Teaching and learning how to deepen our hearts! And when you love something, you let them go....because in true love you never are apart! There is always longing and yearning for connection...as energetically you don't leave my side, and I don't leave yours...We both know that life will always keep us together even if it is not manifested in a romantic happy relationship! "I don’t take my soulmate’s NO personally. It is not some defective aspect of me that he has turned away from. I know this. I accept his right to choose the work his soul shows up for in this life and his own pace of readiness" Jahnke, (2014). We know each other, accept, and love unconditionally and whether we choose to go separately or united, it will be exactly how it is to be...My beloved, wherever you are in life, I love you! Thank you for teaching me how to be whole, to radiate, and to embrace forgiveness as a daily practice...."But there is an unresolvable heartache, a disappointment that does not become diluted with time or distance. My own work with this man has become navigating these emotions with an ever open and compassionate heart" Jahnke, (2014). Sometimes in life you just have to free up space to move, to flow....To let go! Forever Grateful...

Renee Jahnke, (2014) Soulmates and Choices: When the end is not the end. Elephant Journal

Poem: Missing you

My fairytale; fantasy of a kind

The one that never leaves your mind

You trust what you can’t see

You just close your eyes and let it be

I feel you; I need you

Feeling sexy; close your eyes

I am your playmate

Let your expectations fade

I am your favoriate memory

Your fantasy; remember me

You give permission for me to let go

I am your everything

Use your imagination

I am connected; I am affected

I am on fire; take me in

Make me louder; take me higher

Professing my voice; separating the noise

Because I made my choice

Missing you

Where is my heaven

Fragile part of me

I want you

Oh baby you set me free

My MD; revive me

Until then I imagine

My happy ever after

My fairytale; Love of a kind

The one you trust even if blind

Celeste <3

New Song Center

~I am so honored and humbled to be part of such a wonderful organization. I am a children's  facilitator for the New Song program which is funded by Hospice of the Valley. I am also part of the Speakers Buearu The program is designed to support families and their children that have lost a loved one.The facilitation occurs in age groups: little's, middles, tweens, teens, and adults. We had an amazing year where I witnessed kids go through grief...Sigh! Sometimes while facilitating in my tween group I felt they were teaching more about the beauty of grief, love, and life! Loss is such a big part of life that often times we are never given the tools to learn to cope and make these experiences part of us, especially when we are young! These children touch my heart and it is my passion to continue to do this type of work! Our last meeting as an activity we all planted flowers in our own pots to symbolize our loved ones that had passed on...we talked about the soil, the growth, the fertilizer and how even though we go through grief we grow so much and life supports us always! My pot was for my mother and my doggie Stimpy! They both have left so much in me and I remember them with LOVE! The program is free and it is a great resource for families that are going through this devastating process! So spread the word if families are in need! 

Domestic War?

"In the process of my evolution, I became a victim of domestic war, an emotional casualty for a major portion of my life, entwined, entrapped and emotionally involved, until I learned how to become free".~Sara Niles

~In the United States, More than 1.1 million or 7% of women and 720,000 or 4% of men have been victims of some kind of domestic abuse in the past year, official crime figures reveal. All over the world acts of violence within a family unit occur out of the referenced statistics, there are many that are not reported as speaking out comes with shame, guilt, remorse, and fear. I was recently in a gathering and a very eloquent speaker was talking about abuse, out of the 13 participants in the room of women all but one had experienced some form of sexual, physical, mental, or emotional abuse in their childhood and after. Sigh! Speaking out about abusive experiences takes a lot of courage, as the most darkest times of your shattered life become transparent to opinion, ridicule, or even judgement. It is important that we continue to speak up about these horrific experiences and begin to educate victims on the vicious cycle that entraps them. We all have emotional battles, scars, and trials in our lives...the difference is that when another person inflicts power over and hurts you through acts of violence it is not 'normal' anymore. It becomes a jailhouse! Life becomes all about survival, all about protection, all about coping! The greatest emotional damage is that the individuals that take advantage of you say they love you! They wear you down! You begin to adapt, you begin to believe you are not worthy, you begin to disconnect, you begin to lose what it meant to be free. The victimization becomes a reality! The wounds run deep and the healing takes time, commitment, and work! Becoming a survivor, taking off the shackles of abuse has also been my story...a very traumatic journey that taught me so much! The most important thing has been compassion, mostly for myself! And even though circumstance made us victims, it is important to empower our thinking and know that we survived and stretched to stop the abuse within ourselves even after the fact! Any individual going through these situations, you are not alone! There are resources and help! Lift the veil of fear and Speak up!!! The cycle ends with you!!!

She was a shell

Empty and alone

Where could she go?

Who could she tell?

Was easier to stay

To accept defeat

Everyone told her

That's the way it should be.

They all looked away

and left her alone

they turned their heads

to any broken bones

They told her to be strong

for that was the plan

Her only goal

should be to please her man

She did her best

She gave it her all

When asked "What happened?"

She said

"Oh, Just a fall"

Years went by

she learned to adapt

she learned how not

to make him mad

She learned how to please

Just what to say

She learned to make sure

HE had a good day

Those looking on could not see?

Would not see?

The pain that was so deep inside of me

Was it easier to just look away?

Distance and time

closed for me

there was a hand that

could be reached

A hand with a face

from the past

A hand that only for a

short time would last

I held on to that hand

with all my might

I pulled myself up

I learned how to fight

A year has past

And now I see

just how wonderful

life should be

Written in celebration of my freedom

Dedicated to the face from the past,

✿ܓUnknown, Survivor