~Drowning in the silence with no resistance..discovering the beauty of true love in the web of my life. This has been me for the past year...I have been on a wild ride lately, a very deep passionate one! Have been deep diving in emotions that I did not know I even had within me..yet every step of the way I have expressed my gratitude..as I allowed my heart to be cracked open to all possibility with no reservations nor expectations..trusting myself! I really needed this...have been searching and asking for it! Observing myself through this process..I found a deeper feeling to the word gratitude..as in our walks in life we all say "Thank you" and appreciate others for their service and contribution in our lives as an automatic response at times or at least that was the case for me. I believe sometimes we all put high emphasis on words, thoughts, and outcomes/expectations. The dictionary meaning of what should be according to others standards? We are taught to operate mechanically in this society, but feeling words is an experience that I invite you all to do! We have so much access to information that as we process we are exposed to external influence on a daily basis. As we live in the "information age" it is very easy to get disconnected from yourself and others, then attachment to 'things' occur whether that be material, relationships, substances, or ideas. Dysfunctional patterns that we adapt to attempting to survive,which do not serve us, nor serve our true nature, as they are all fabrications. We all have a choice to allow ourselves to feel...I am the first to say that some feelings such as anger, sadness, and fear are normal in all of us,once we feel them..we heal them! There is no need to live trapped in those three emotions that disable us from the beauty of life long energy that surrounds us..they will oppress and repress you..if you allow them to linger inside you!
The breath that I inhale now has a whole new perspective and I am eternally grateful for the person that brought out true love within me...how lucky I feel to have experienced such radiance and passion! Sigh...I don't think I could ever do justice to the LOVE I have felt...In loving GRATITUDE!
I leave you with this thought: " The real gratitude can never find words to express itself. The gratitude that can find words to express itself is just a formality — because anything heartfelt immediately goes beyond words, concepts, language. You can live it, it can shine from your eyes, it can come as a fragrance from your whole being. It can be a music of your silence, but you cannot say it. The moment you say it, something essential dies immediately. Words can only carry corpses, not living experiences" ~Osho
